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Wednesday, December 1, 2010

hello december

wow. kannn dah december kan. sungguhlah cepat. tiba2 dah nak masuk 2011. omaigod.

kerjaya

today is my 4th year working here. sampai bila? huh. tough question. first job. got hired when i was still a student, lagi few months to finish my study masa tu. and after that did not bother to find another job. malas gila. huh.

lepas ni kenalah rajin kot mencari2 peluang!

except for PTD sebab JPA scholars kena lah apply kot kerja kerajaan kang dia suruh bayar balik haku mana ada duit. PTPTN yang dia bagi masa first sem before dapat JPA pun abah yang bayarkan semua. hehe.

semua orang pun update SPA application so i pun update lah.

paling tak suka kena menari masa assessment. what the hell? huh. tapi masa interview i sucks because datok tu tanya if kena transfer kat sabah macam mana? husband awak kat klang. i immediately said no. sah2 lah orang reject.

haha baik aku terus terang. tidak mahu. sekian.

ni masa bulan pertama kerja December 2006.

weddings!

december ni musim orang kahwin. yang every weekend ada wedding invitation tu. hehe sendiri pun kahwin december tahun lepas. oh dah nak setahun ke. huhuhu

so all to bride to bes yang nak kahwin ni, all the best okay!

encik suami dan anak

my B is sick. he's trying hard to stay away from me so that i wont get affected. actually the whole house dah affected. my parents yang bawa balik virus dari makkah. hehe.

alhamdulillah so far, i berhingus sikit2 je. kalau batuk malam2 pun yang sekali dua manja2 (tapi terkencing jugakkk). makan terus ubat selesema hari tu okay. ni lupa nak makan semalam, macam hingus manja2 sikit. hope baik2 aja lah. baby kuat kannnnnn!

he's been so freaking busy lately. and demam pulak. the way i see it, he's too occupied with his work, spending way too much time on his lappy, phone calls and the only time i get close to him is when he's next to me on bed.

so close yet so far away. coz he will sleep like a baby. and i got awaken at times to go pee or whenever he's coughing at night. and he said we cant cuddle much because he does not want to spread the virus. T___T

But we let our legs curled up though. huh. pregnant women can be extremely manja tahu

he even offered himself to sleep in the other room. of course i said no.

i thought he has not talked to the baby for days. we have not talked about us for days. when he always talked to me on his work stuffs. which really i understand nothing.

being me, i listen. i hope i said things he wants to hear.

being me, i told him nothing about how i feel. about how i miss us. hoping that he can tell!

being me, i may have showed my uncomfortable face. i may have been quite. i may have been ignoring him when he tried to say something nice to me. i may have said no for many things. i may have not replied when he kiss. i may not hugged him before leaving to work, just a quick kiss.

and he never came to me and ask if i'm okay. instead he keep acting like usual. making silly jokes whenever he can. which makes me even more hendak merajuk.

but last night, as i was asleep. he came, hugged and kissed me.

hunny, selamat ulang tahun pertunangan. sorry b lupa. b busy sangat kan lately. tapi b sayang hunny tau. b nak hug and kiss hunny macam biasa tapi b tak nak hunny jangkit.

aha, so he has time to read my blog. i did not turn sebab nak menangis. pura2 tidur. tapi last2 i turn when he released his arms sebab nak batuk.

then, i sapukan vicks kat dia. and said, b i miss you! yang terus nangis. okay now everybody, blame the hormones!

i think baby also miss her papa. sebab masa we hugged, bukan main active lagi dia gerak2. macam that was the most active movement she ever made at the longest time ever! we both were enjoying the moment. and hope she's happy inside.

baby, papa busy kerja cari rezeki untuk kita. kalau dia lupa nak kiss baby or talk to you, nanti mummy marah dia ok. hehe

tapi b said there are times when he talked to baby when i'm asleep. mmmhh okayyy.

this morning, before i left to work, B talked to baby.

sayang, dah bangun ke? papa sayang baby tau. dok dalam perut mummy baik2 ok.

zass! baby tendang secara kuat. we both laughed. i dont know if that was an OK, papa-act or oh-papa-you-dont-have-to-tell-me-that, i knowww-act! hehe

now i know why all mommies said they miss being pregnant! huhu.

oh yes, i cant wait for tomorrow. i'll be following him to work in Penang and Langkawi. sambil2 itu, babymoon terus lah. hehe.

will be back on Monday. Selasa, insya allah my parents nak buat doa selamat sempena dah selamat pulang dari menunaikan haji. and sambil2 itu, solat hajat untuk me and baby. tapi tak adalah lenggang2 perut tu. solat hajat, baca yassin je.

esok juga ada 7th month check up. jeng jeng jenggggg. tak sabar nak tengok baby. tapi risau juga nak timbang berat. hehe.

pagi tadi i tanya B, B hunny gemuk ke?

dia gelak cakap tak laaaaahhhhh

tapi B jangan cakap sebab nak amek hati hunny eh. cakap terus terang. masih tak puas hati.

bukan gemuk. kan makin besar sebab perut besar. makan lah yang. sementara boleh makan ni. nanti lepas bersalin dietlah kalau nak diet.

boleh percaya ke? whatever! tengok je dr kata apa esok! huhuhu.

jalan laju je lagi. tapi nak bangun dari duduk or baring. mak aih. menyesal tak beli nursing pillow kat baby fair that day. yang juga pregnancy pillow. macam setap je nak tidur dengan tu. huhuhu

okaylah. have a great december ahead!

3 comments:

Mrs. Eeza Herman said...

hepi holiday....take care...mesti baby pun seronok sama dpt gi holiday...

Little BlueBird said...

perut besar da......

ederq said...

;)