RANDOM STRESSED POST

now let's play random. not a happy clappy post. (except point 4) dont proceed if you wish not to.

1. i'm sick of reminding people of the same very thing everyday, for weeks or months even. and not a surprise when all you need is to whine more and a bit of smacking on the brain with high pitch voice and the talent of nagging that every woman has, then things will be done, right away. yes done with rebellious attitude but at least, it is done. if i knew i would do that on the very first place. no ms nice lady anymore.
2. i dont accept a friend request if i dont know you. but if you happen to know me or my bf or like to be friend with me, send a message instead. then ask for friend request. then you wont get to be rejected or blocked. the reason being, i'm not comfortable with a person who wants to be friend with me just to stalk on my life (ceh kau ingat kau celebrity??!! actually this is based on previous experience. si saiko yg suka kt my bf. HUH) or to increase number or friends! (now i sound like so sombong huh. do i care?)
   
3. i fecking hate my job now. bored bloody bored. it will get interesting sometimes. but now. i'm just so bored. the load is piling up but i hate to do it. is there anything i can do in the world that really can make money, and something that i'll love to do everyday?
   
4. my first fitting session was fine. need to alter, kecikkan a bit. i cant wait for it to be finished! i think i'll love it! as for JB event, it is a rented one. glad that i can fit in! haha!
   
5. you know all those diet food? forget it. spend your money on gym instead. no really i'm sick of those advertisements. bloody expensive and you'll never know what the side effects will be. so it's either to save up the money or go gym. well at least now i'm against it. dunno if i'll change my mind if i get overweight. ya ampun mintak simpanggggg.
6. okay. plastic again. please dont fecking ask for plastic bag if you are buying a canned drink only. or any single item that you will consume immediately after buying, or put in in your bag or whatsoever reason that you can think off! it is soooo stupid of you. annoyed!
7. and i hate people who throw things outside of the window while driving. be it a tissue paper only.
8. PLEASE DO NOT LITTER! if you do, you are just a dumbass!

okay, peep. enough for today's crap. i'm a bit stressed out here. sorry for the harsh words. cant help it!

bye loves!

APA PENDAPAT ANDA

kalau aku recycle selendang ini untuk majlis nikah okay tak? adakah nanti akan nampak sama? FYI, baju nikah aku adalah lilac. dan majlis nikah adalah pagi. lepas tu tengah hari sanding. makanya aku hanya pakai dalam masa lebih kurang 4 jam max.

aku adalah gatal gelenyar nak beli yang baru tapi iman kata jangan bazir. ececeh imannnn.

saja je la nak post gambar tunang dulu dan dan je gambar en tunang blur. hihihihihih

UPDATE: THE SELENDANG DOESNT MATCH MY NIKAH OUTFIT. MAKANYAAAAA WAJIB BELI BARU. BAHAHAHAHAHHA!

am not alone. hih

i always thought i was in the deepest shit, all alone, struggling to survive during our numerous fights lately. and the issues were always on wedding preparations. you wouldn't believe on how easy i got insulted, angry and mad and whatnot. obviously i'm not the only reason. he is just the same or meaner. hihihi

tapi geram gila okayyyyy. macam perang dunia woh

but then, i realised that i'm not alone. many of my girlfriends (married or soon to be) said the same things too. FEWH. and thanks ladies for the advice. :)

the stress, nervousness, excitement, and i must say the fear in ourselves lead to copious stupid fights. oh tiring gilaa. and yes, being a woman. you will want everything to be perfect and smooth and having him sometimes not paying attention to details will drive you mad. mmh

then we said sorry and realised on how dumb we were. thought we should have talked nicer to each other. and act professional. and patience is the key. sounds easy, but i tell you it ain't! haha! especially being me yang degil and always thought i was always right (which most of the time, yes!) hihi. soo.. mmhh

nevertheless, despite the harsh words, tiring fights, we still know we still love each other and can't wait for the day....

:)

TAK PAYAH PLASTIK

kalau setakat beli roti gardenia atau chewing gum 3 ketul atau air kotak satu (atau ya bukan dan) tak perlu lah bagi plastik.

seboleh2 kalau kau beli apa2, sumbat je dalam handbag. atau kalau dah dekat sangat dengan rumah, tak perlu nak bimbit dalam plastik. atau lagi bagus ada shopping bag sendiri. atau kalau tak ada, bila beli barang yang lain, masukkan dalam plastik yang sedia ada yang kau dapat masa beli barang lain mula2.

bukan aku nak cakap kau kedekut pun kalau kau tak beri plastik.

memang susah kalau nak tak guna beg plastik langsung tapi at least, kurangkan lah. sikit2 pun dah ada impak. kalau semua orang buat lah.

tolonglah sedar plastik tidak akan degrade senang2. lemahnya dengan orang2 yang masih tak tahu pasal ni.

pasrah

esok fitting baju perantin belah JB. and isnin belah KL. kenapa tak boleh tunggu dalam beberapa minggu lagi. mungkin dengan beberapa siri bodycombat, bodyjam dan weight lifting segala ia akan lebih, mmm kurang berlemak.

mm hohhh what ever! pasrah je la. huwaaa

ieda kononnnn

sebelum ni aku memang suka lah sangat tukar2 number fon. asal bila dapat boyfriend baru je tukar. konon nak sama2 dapat best rate bila gayut. eceh sekarang kau nak cakap kau banyak boyfriend ke apa?? elelee macam banyak sangat padahal sorang tu jelah yang dok melekattt. hihih. dan sepanjang tukar number tu dengan boyfriend tu je la pon. eh yeke. mmh tah tak ingat.

sebenarnya, pertukaran number telefon kadang2 tak dapat nak elak. lepas tu last2 malas dah nak sms semua orang number baru. makanya bila saya sms semua orang minta alamat, ada yang tanya siapa ni? ieda mana?

ceh. pastu bila aku cakap ni ederq lah adalah beberapa orang kata. eiii ieda konon. geli aku. cakap je la ederq. mentang2 nak kahwin lemah lembut pulakkk.

hahahaha! padahal tu la nama dari kecil. cumanya bila di KMPP and UM ramai yang kenal aku as Ederq. dan yang lebih dasat ramai je tak tahu nama sebenar aku sampai habis belajar.

dan aku ingat lagi kak ida, percaya bila aku kata nama sebenar aku nur azderq siap dia puji ibu bapa aku pandai bagi nama unik dan nak letak nama tu kat anak dia nanti. hahahah!

ha cakap pasal nama anak, hati tu kannnn. saya kannn dengan iza kannnn. dengan gatalnya kannn fikir nama anak. hahahhahahaah apalah nak jadi dengan budak2 ni. eh iza tu dah kahwin memang patut tapi kenapa perempuan ni nak sibuk fikir2 jugak siap chop2. ish ishhhhh

ish apa ni merapu lah. sebenarnya aku nak cakap siapa yang belum bagi address bagila ya. bazir je bil aku sms pastu korang malas nak reply. hehe membebel pulakkk.

k bye!

kena kuat

niat baik yang salah diertikan.
kena marah kena kutuk kena keji.
sakit.
sakit sangat.

tapi tak apa.
kena kuat.

mengadanya

tadi nampak ada gambar orang makan A&W.
semalam nampak ada iklan KFC.
semalam lalu depan burger king.

sengal.

kalau lapar suka lah kempunan makan benda murahan gemuk ni lah.

tapi curly fries kt A&W sedap. Mozza burger dia sedap.
pastu black pepper burger kat burger king pun sedap.
cheesy wedges kat KFC lagi lah ya allah sedap nya.

sepak kangggggg

kenapalah kau mcm ini lah

ish. serabut. this is the phone conversation between me and an old friend.

saya: weh kau call aku pas office hour lah. busy sket.
dia: ah kau gila? nanti kantoi la dengan bini aku.
saya: lor kenapa bini kau nak marah lak?
dia: yela takkan aku nak call kau kat rumah? amenda la kau ni..
saya: errr. aku busy lah
dia: oklah aku call kau time lunch hour.

then... few missed calls and i didn't bother to answer.

then smses.

dia: wei pesal la ko susah sgt nk angkat fon ni. tension aku tau x

saya: keja la weh.

dia: aku pun keje gak. xkan xleh kot nk tpon jap.


????

kenapa ada orang macam ni ha? apa masalah kalau cakap dengan perempuan lain depan bini? macam lah nak berjiwang dengan aku? macam2 orang la kan. huhuhu

dan kenapa nak tension dengan gua bila gua tak angkat fon call lu pulak?! (mcm rempit pulak)

HOHHH!

biru mata hitamku

i am rabun (a bit) but i have stopped wearing my glasses many moons ago. tak sukalah when i have the besi on my penyek nose. pulak tu i'm the clumsy type. my ex housemate used to sit on my glasess sebab i letak on the floor. padan muka.

pastu beli yg frameless langsung patah sebab i yang terpenyekkan dia. after that, i never bought any glasses. sebab bukanlah rabun yang kronik so i biar je la malas nak pakai. baik aku beli baju banyak2 dari beli glasses pastu patah. nak pakai lense pun kedekut.

tiba2 kan apai penjual lense promote untuk pakai time kawen nanti. ish i still doubt lah. because tak pernah pakai and being the person who likes to rub nose and eyes at most possible time, so macam malasnya nak pakai.

tapi tengok macam cun aje lah. so, i bought and nanti apai ajar pandai lah i kot kan. hahaha.

so siapa2 interested can contact apai directly. have a look here!

note: i didnt buy blue color lah! haha

feels like yesterday

me n ariff were at sunway pyramid, hunting my wedding shoes. okay, we were not supposed to hunt as the shoes were booked tapi tiba2 tergatal suka kasut lain.

so, yay! it was a good buy i guess. suits for wedding reception, nikah and everyday use jugak. hihi. cukuplah baju je yang one time wear kasut kena relevan dengan apa jua keadaan la kan.

okay, that's not the main point. we went to SK Jewellery to shine my True Love engagement ring. as i wear it everyday without failure (unlike orang tu, susah je nak pakai. penat je beli okay), the shine dah tak berapa power and ada minor notches kang gold dia so rasa nak pegi shine la kan.

so suka nya i bila tengok i bersinar kembali. and it really feels like yesterday we were engaged padahal almost a year now. wow how time flies.

23/11/2008

mmh bila lah nak dapat GIA certified diamonds lagi eh. mesti mata encik tunang yang sepet terus bulat baca ni. hahaha

menjadi lemah lembut

orang2 yang terdekat dengan saya seperti ibu bapa, kelauarga dan encik tunang dan kawan2 rapat memang tahu saya bukan perempuan lemah lembut sangat pun. cakap kasar duduk terkangkang2, kentut2, gelak macam pontianak, suka garang2, pendek kata memang tak sopan lah. ish kalau ibu mertua tahu sikap sebenar....

akhir2 ni encik tunang kata saya semakin kasar dalam perbicaraan sehari2. yelah kalau sapa yang kenal encik tunang saya, dia memang soft spoken sikit. suara saya memang lagi halilintar dari dia. masa mula2 kapel lagila saya hanya pura2 dengar je apa dia cakap ni bisik2 tak dengar lah. tapi lama2 dia cakap macam biasa dan ketawa macam kuda dah tak reti nak kontrol dah dan bila dia marah dia sembur saya dengan api woh mesti kau orang tak dapat bayangkan macam mana okay dan dan okay2 cukup cukup walau bagaimanapun, saya masih dikira dan dilihat sebagai perempuan kasar di mana dia lebih sopan dan lemah lembut dari saya. faham tak sekarang situasi dia? faham tak ni?

ibu saya pun cakap cubalah lembut2 sikit nak jadi bini orang dah ni tak ada lemah gemalai langsung awak ni.

dan terus saya terfikir. kasar sangat ke saya ni? garang sangat ke? ganas sangat ke? ish.

terima je seadanya boleh tak?

nampak je kasar tapi hati mulia okay. apa tuuuuuuuu????? sengal

nota: encik tunang selalu cakap saya ketawa entah apa2 dan suka ajuk tapi dia tak sedar dia ketawa lagi lah entah apa2. eiiiii.. lalalalalaaa

hiv test

bersabar sajalah dengan karenah birokrasi. ikut prosedur konon. sabar sabar. tula sapa suruh buat last minute?

nasiblah baik encik tunang ada kawan di hospital kerajaan yang boleh tolong. dan kalau ada kawan dr memang susah sikit lah nak tolong sebab dorang busy kot. kalau ada pegawai macam chemist ke, nurse ke, kerani ke. memang mudah kerja. fewh!

dan semalam sebab buat di hospital maka kita orang bukan buat ujian saringan malah yang betul2 punya ujian. ambil darah di lengan. ceh encik tunang tu kannn, masa nurse ambil darah saya, dia tengok tempat lain. apa tu? nanti kalau saya bersalin macam manalah? eiiii

awcchhh

mula2 nak buat talasemia sekali tapi tak berkesempatan. macam nak pergi lagi je untuk talasemia. sebab malas nak bayar mahal2 kat swasta. hihi. boleh tak B tanyakan aqila? hihi

and by the way, i have found my off white wedding shoes too! going to pick them up tomorrow at sunway pyramid! weee!

his unforgotten birthday

muka terpaksa berpuas hati tak dapat birthday cake. dessert pun okay la kannn. support sket cik tunang awak diet okeh. hih

muka terkejut ariff bila hanya dapat hadiah tengok wayang premiere. tak ada birthday present. hih

and by the way, we had his birthday dinner at pannaz. a recomended place to go. affordable, cosy and the food is not bad. yum!

happy birthday darl!

wedding cake dan cekik darah

saya adalah terkejut amat apabila ada cake vendor yang quote saya harga wedding cake 3 tier adalah hampir 1k. hampir pingsan!

dahla simple deco je pon. ish cekikkkkk betul eh.

nampaknya saya kena betul2 pergi belajar buat kek dan lepas tu jual mahal2 macam dia orang ni. mesti kaya raya.

okay okay mesti ada orang kata kena kira material, upah kreatif segala. okay fine. maybe it's just me. 1k for wedding cake? way too much. especially for a simple wedding like mine.

lainlah kalau kau buat kat hotel bagai dan banyak duet lebih kan. if you have the money, why not? :)

kalau cake topper burung macam ni mesti orang quote aku 2k agaknya. haha

you can't have it all

it's not always rainbows and butterflies. it's not always perfect. it's not always tempting. it's not always soothing.

but it's okay. and somehow that makes the life almost perfect. well maybe not really almost but getting there.

and the most important thing is - be thankful to Allah. at all possible time.

:)

persediaan bakal perantin

source

selain dari bersiap sedia untuk majlis, persiapan untuk menjadi isteri juga penting. selain dari ilmu, fizikal juga penting.

tapi saya hanya pergi spa manicure pedicure segala sahaja kot. bila ada kawan saya tanya ada petua tak sebelum kahwin ni. dan dia makan madu untuk tenaga. saya pun jadi gelabah. adakah perlu?

lagi nak makan apa? mind sharing sapa2 yang tahu? hih!

arigato!

MY STAR

encik tunang,

shit happens, and glad you are always there to brighten and sooth me.
i love you with all my heart.

lovebirds

xoxo
hunny.

the wedding dress and the fat

first of all, i would like to advise all the bride to be (dan juga sapa2 je yg baca ni), if you are choosing anything, listen to your heart not to others. SIGH

the reason being, my kain for nikah dress. its made of korean lace with satin lining. i didn't like it at the first place but seems that orang penjual kain and encik tunang said that i looked best on it, so i grabbed that.

and now. i cant help feeling so menyesal for not choosing a softer material or softer color or okay okay stop now. nasi jadi bubur. all i can do now is praying the material will look good on me during the solemnization. mmh

and wedding dress. CT has sketched me the dress design months ago. and i think i'll stick to it. i asked her to reduce the measurement to 1cm smaller dengan harapan me akan kurus. but she refused to as she doesnt believe that i'll get any smaller. HOH! kejam. okay i'll prove it when it comes to fitting session. nanti terpaksa kecilkan 5cm. hahahaha! berangan kau ya!

instead she measured me while i'm on my girdle and corset will all fat crushed in. haha!

okay fine. i tell you what. i'm 50.8kg now. and 29.3% of my body mass is fat. haha. 24% is suppose to be the max one you see. and the personal trainer said that i need to reduce 6kg in order to get rid of the fat. walawey gila apa. then i'll be underweight! but with good percentage of fat. hihi.

but get real okay. i wouldnt go down to that low. (not that i dont want to but susah gila la weh) so what i'll do is just to increase muscle and water, replace fat. huh! susah jugak tu. hahah! mana lemak paling tepu? perut and peha and buntot okeh. gerammm. degil gila diaaa.

okay this weekend, will be back to JB to finalize the bertandang event - dress and pelamin pulak.

the ticker is really moving can u believe it???

kad undangan perkahwinan

semasa kakdkahwinku.com menelefon saya bahawa design kad sudah siap untuk disemak, saya adalah berdebar2 dan tidak sabar untuk lihat design itu. adakah dia berjaya melayukan design itu? adakah seperti kad hari jadi atau valentine? sehingga termimpi di malam hari bahawa saya tidak gembira dengan design kad itu.

dan tadi saya dan encik tunang pergi ke kadkahwinku dengan harapan menggunung. dan hasilnya....

adalah sukaaaaaaaa! hahaha! both me and encik tunang adalah berpuas hati.

so lepas ni tinggal nak konfemkan map ajelah. penin ok penin map dia. aku harap orang tak sesat nak datang wedding aku nanti.